Saturday, June 27, 2009

I Will Say One Thing About It...(off topic)

I know you all are probably tired of hearing about the death of MJ and having it shoved down your throats but I just wanted to say one thing about it.
All this adoration of him is complete bullshit because just last week they were calling him 'wacko jacko' and hating him. I just despise dishonesty and I think its interesting how suddenly when someone dies they become important or even respected when in life they were regarded as a joke. Yeah, I get it. He was the king of pop...okay. What else?

People die-get over it.

Treat him like how you were just a couple of days ago rather than pay reverence for someone you didn't even really respect in the first place.

It happened with Anna Nicole and now with MJ and I'm sick of it.

Okay, my mini rant is over.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Recommended Reading: Running With Scissors

Who doesn't like stories about strange dysfunctional families? Whats even better is that it's a memoir so it's real! I read this last week, couldn't put it down. It's a strangely poignant coming of age story about the life of Augusten Burroughs, who lives a bizarre life after his writer mother sends him to live with her psychiatrist named Dr. Finch. The best description for the book, I'd say, would be deliciously disturbing. Between the Dr. having a masturbatorium, his psychotic mother having unstable lesbian relationships w/ various women and thinking herself a great writer, eating dog food, and even Augusten himself having a sexual relationship with a 30 something guy at 15-phew! It's a lot of book. All of it is written in a kind of brazen apathetically sarcastic way-which adds to the ridiculousness of it all because the topics are so serious. I hadn't done one of the recommended reading in a while-but if you have any reading suggestions please post them (I'm freakin trapped at home because of the outrageous snow/blizzard storm going on)

*By the way-don't see the movie. It was one of the worst book to film adaptations I've ever seen.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Gay Metalheads?

Male dominated. Sweaty. In your face. Brutal. Head Banging. Mosh Pits. Screaming. Aggression.

Where would gay fit into any of this?

One of my best friends is gay and plays bass in a metal band (Well, he says metal- I say metal core). He hasn't told a soul that he's gay, besides me and the few others he's come out to. What saddens me the most is that he hasn't told his best friends/band members that he is. I wondered about this for a while. Why would he feel that he couldn't tell his best friends, some of which he's known since kindergarten?

This made me think that being a gay metal head is almost comparable to being a female metal head or a black metal head but it just might be worse. Metal is generally super machismo (not including hair metal which I don't consider real metal) as well as aggressive and doesn't really allow for a homosexual male to feel comfortable declaring that he is indeed homosexual. I bet there are a good bit of gay famous heavy metal musicians but only a few are brave enough to out themselves, like the one in the picture above. Gaahl of black metal band, Gorgoroth. He practically screams 'gay'.
Or the most famous outed gay metalhead Rob Halford of Judas Priest. Those are the only two that I could think of off the top of my head. And out of all the metal bands and fans out there I'm positive there are more. I might go as far as to say that heavy metal is slightly homophobic. It's almost like being a gay rapper. Have you heard of any famous gay male rappers? I didn't think so.

I always found it humorous that metal is so testosterone fueled yet the fans are okay with growing their hair long, wearing make up and tight leather pants yet be so standoff-ish when it comes to the possibility of gay men in their scene.
What say you?

Monday, June 1, 2009

"Your Not Like The Rest of Them..."

Tell me what the hell this means?

I was at my brother's apartment meeting some of his friends and one guy (a friend of a friend) in particular (who had a confederate flag bedspread mind you)-got to talking to me about music, political views, yadda yadda. Then rather abruptly he says "You and your brother aren't like the rest of them". I sort of was dumbfounded then a fiery rage starts to bubble in me and I ask "What does that mean?" He sort of shrugs and goes off on this explanation that my brother and I aren't like regular black people. We don't dress or speak like most black people. In his words he says "You dress like us and that's a good thing". I decide to quiet my inner rage and diplomatically have a conversation with him about how that sounded to me and why its a tad offensive. He got super offended and said 'Ah, now your pulling the black card on me. I was just complimenting you.' he said this sort of jokingly but by that time I had enough so I choose to go tell my brother I'm leaving.

First of all-I'm confused on how this was a compliment. Your not like the rest of opposed to what? Meaning that the rest of them (other black folks) are synonymous with something negative. I'm always so flustered when people say this or something similar to me and the countless other black folks that 'aren't like the rest of them'. There are SO many different types of black people out there yet because of media reinforcement and a few negative encounters-others have formed a false opinion of us. I hate feeling like I've already posted about this but its true and it happens all the time. Why are people surprised that I should talk a certain way, dress, be interested in certain things? What it really comes down to is a lack of exposure to each other. There are many people who don't venture out-racially-in terms of making relationships with people. And its not their fault. If they've never been exposed to anything outside of their circle then why would they ever really need to? And this goes for all races of people but I honestly believe that in order to let go of prejudices and false representations we need to try and get to know people of different cultures and lifestyles apart from the media or the few moments of contact we've had with said races.

I absolutely hate that where I live its so segregated (unconsciously mind you). There's the Hispanic, white and black areas of town and there are stigmas in all the areas. I have friends that live all over my town and yet they still will say some pretty nasty things about areas they've never even been in because of what they have HEARD and not what they have EXPERIENCED themselves.

Now mind you, I've met plenty of vile people that have come from all races yet I know that one person does not represent a culture, ethnicity, or an entire race.

*shrug* Maybe its just like that where I live. All I know is that I need to get the hell out of this city-but does it ever really change wherever you go?


I do apoligize for the lack of updates. I've been super busy graduating. Not to mention all the personal family/relationship drama I've been having but I promise to continue posting when I have the time. Keep checking back and if you have any questions/comments post them here. Thanks!